Introduction

I have contemplated writing another blog for quite awhile. And the idea just isn't leaving so here it is.

I have felt that I have been on a quest over the past few years. It has rocked everything I thought I knew about myself, my life, my beliefs, my mindsets, my past, and my future. It has changed how I view people, circumstances and everything I encounter. While I would like to say that I have been growing and learning and progressing, I feel that I am still in the stripping it all down so the Lord can re-teach me what is His truth. I have had my own perception of "my truth" that I have held onto tightly, and it has shaped everything about me. But I have begun to realize that just because I see something a certain way doesn't mean that God sees it the same way. I am having to relearn everything.

So I decided to write everything that the Lord is revealing to me and teaching me in this blog. If for no other reason than to make myself accountable for what he is telling me. And maybe it will minister to someone else in the process. I must say first that I am writing this for my own benefit. I will not filter what the Lord is revealing to me or even how I am dealing with it to make others more comfortable. With that said, read if you want and don't if you don't want to. It makes no difference to me. I have spent too much of my life thus far worrying about what other people think of me. And God has been teaching me lately that if I try to please everyone else and in doing so turn my back on him and this truth that I am making the worst decision possible. I want to please him. I have a long way to go. I know that. And I am realizing that more and more every day.

THE FIRST THING GOD IS TEACHING ME:

The biggest stumbling block between where I am and where God wants to take me is myself. My selfishness, my pride, my doubts, my unbelief, my fears. He is always willing to do a great thing in me but so often I have held back out of fear of the unknown. I may not like my self-imposed prison, but at least it is comfortable and I know what to expect. That mindset can keep me locked up in myself forever. I don't want that anymore.

Dear Lord, I release myself into your hands. Please reveal the things in my life that would keep me in chains mentally, physically, emotionally and most importantly spiritually. I don't want to be the person I am any longer. You created me to be so much more than what I have settled for. Please do your work in me. I love you and I thank you that you have not given up on me, ever.