Ah-Ha

Thank you Tara for your response to the last post. It was just confirmation of what the Lord has been telling me since the I wrote it down.

Last night I went to a "Night Of Praise" at the church my brother is the praise & worship leader. It was great! There is just something about worshipping the Lord in such an atmosphere of freedom. And it occurred to me that I am spending way too much time dwwlling on all of this. If I want to be the same person I am today in a year then I should just keep on doing what I am doing. I want to be free of this burden. I want to be effective for the Kingdom of God and most importantly I want this wall of seperation between me and my Father God to come crumbling down. We sang a song last night that says "the enemys been defeated, death couldn't hold you down, gonna raise my voice in victory, gonna make my praises loud". People, it was like a gong ringing in my soul. The "Ah-Ha Moment". God can handle all of this, why have I tried to do it all on my own? In one word.....pride. So I am making the choice to move forward and do what I need to do. Forgive. I know I will have to do it daily for it to make any difference but I am ready to experience true freedom in Christ.

And by the way....if you haven't read the comment that was left on the last post, please do so. It's great!!! And I know that she writes out of a heart that seeks to please the Lord above all else. I trust her counsel.

Seeing the light at the end of the tunnel........K